Brian had many loves...I was top of the list.
One of his main loves were hawks.
I love wolves....so together we became WolfnHawk.
Our first Christmas together brought Brian a special surprise.
He was in the shower...I yelled "Honey, come quick!"
Sitting outside our livingroom window was this hawk.
Believe it or not...the second Christmas morning...the
hawk was back.
This hawk visited us many times. Sadly, it died when it hit our window.
I went out in the morning to feed the birds. He was laying under the bushes in the snow.
I called Brian. Brian said I should get him. I told him I had already done it. Both of us knew right away we wanted to keep him.
We had it taxidermed because we loved him.
But this is him wild & free..that first Christmas morning.
When we got the second computer, Brian had to take another name.
He became LightningHawk. I always teased him & called him ChickenHawk. I even had him listed as that on my IM.
Speaking of computers....we'd sit beside eachother at the puter table.
We'd send loving little emails or IM's to eachother.
It broke my heart when his laptop crashed after he died. I hadn't backed up files & lost everything of his.
Another love we shared was photography. I remember the first time he came here & seen my collection of sunrise/sunsets pictures on the wall.
It didn't take us long to add our own to that.
We both carried our 35mm cameras everywhere we went.
Brian was thrilled when he got the huge lens. He called it "Bertha".
Those that know & love Brian know the "Brina" story.
I was forever making a typo on his name. ...it became Brina.
Friends on the message board we were on started calling him that also.
He was even called that by some in person at the get togethers.
I even suggested he legally change his name to Brina.
So, if you notice his name spelled Brina on this site...
it's done with love & smiles.
The Bald Head & the Mini Donkey
I want to share this since folks have been looking at
Brian's memorial page.
When Brian turned 40, he wanted to shave his head.
I hated it. We joked back & forth about it all the time.
Anyway...2 good friends of our got breast cancer at the sametime.
All of us gals were wearing pink for them.
Brian & I were shopping....he says to me that he wants to support
I looked at his face & went "Oh no you don't. You just wanna shave
your head to bug me again".
He was laughing so hard because he knew he had me over a barrel.
So off we go to get his head shaved. I did the first swipes with the razor
while the hairdressers took pics.
They were all laughing because everytime we went in there, they had to
check with me how short she could cut Brian's hair.
It was a standard joke he wanted to shave his head.
It went on for years.
So, the pics in his memorial album are just a few weeks before his death.
Doing his thing to honour & support our friends.
The pink pup was a mascot for one...
the kohola was the mascot for our friend in Australia.
They always travelled in our big truck with us.
I always wanted a mini donkey because I love Eeyore.
I told him if he shaved his head again, I was getting a
Lots of our friends were in on it too.
In one pic, he is riding a mini donkey that friends in OK
sent home with usl
So the deal was this (forgive our warped humour)
If I died first, he'd show up at my funeral with a shaved head.
If he died first, I'd be at his with my mini donkey.
Sad to say...I couldn't bring my heart to get my mini donkey.
His death any other way may have let me....just not this way.
Stardust Memories...Returns to earth JAN 2006
STARDUST CAPSULE RETURNS
I AM SO EXCITED....YES ME, EXCITED
Hi friends, I am actually so excited about the oddest thing.
Stardust Capsule is due to land back on Earth this coming Sun Jan 15.
Here is why it excites me.
Brian was so into space travel & all the wonders of the universe. He wanted to go into space so very bad.
So one of my "peaceful" thoughts since his death is that he now can do this. When I talk out loud to him, I am always asking him about the wonders of the universe...asking him what he is seeing etc. I even tease him about the last few nights & not having any stars out. Told him to give them back.
OK...to the finer points of my excitement. Stardust Capsule is expected to plummet back to Utah.
The brightest spot will be over Carlin Nevada.
It is just outside Carlin Nevada that Brian took his life. And Utah holds so many special memories for us.
Call me silly, but I am just in awe that the brightest spot will be over Carlin. I just know that comet dust will trickle down & land on where he died. Comet dust from the beginning of time.
When I read that, I felt such a tug on my heart....that it's some kind of sign from Brian. (I know we can take anything we want as signs...)
A funny part of sharing this with some friends is how we all thought the same thing...we could picture riding that capsule in fine cowboy form....doing some yeeeeeee hawwwwwwws.